February 21, 2009
“ September seemed so long ago, now. Those first days of surprising meetings and re-meetings, the nervous wondering if he was mad for feeling connected to this man he’d only met on accident a couple times. Three months was all it was, though, and Sirius still had a sense that maybe he was putting too much on all this, making it seem bigger than it ought to be. At the same time, though, this was fast becoming the most longterm relationship in his life. He’d dated a girl back in school, before uni, and it technically spread over a summer, though they’d spent little time together and had really just been a convenient arrangement to have someone to snog on breaks between classes.

Not in question at all was the fact that this relationship was far and away the most meaningful. For years, when James was chasing after Lily and when he’d finally worn her down, Sirius would inwardly scoff at James’s insistence that there was any way to really know that he was meant for this one person. When he finally asked James about it, James could only say that one day, Sirius would understand. Hesitant as he was to say it aloud and risk breaking the spell that he felt caught up in, Sirius did understand now, and his only wish was that time would move faster so that he could feel more confident in feeling like he had the right to say that Remus Lupin was the love of his life.
From my Epic AU Fic, thusfar untitled. •